So the bike racks at my local library are sort of shitty, and because I have a lock and no chain I am more than a little tense. I’ll make this brief since most of you just like the videos and pretty pictures.

The Deathset and Matt & Kim for the Colt 45 tour @ Hugs. July 5 2008

Okay, I had to leave the library. I’ve been spending a considerable amount of my time biking around my town trying to find wi-fi hot spots feeling like the utter nerd and am. I’m posted up at my favorite park, and much to my surprise I feel extremely uncomfortable typing around so much vegetation in public, plus the fact that there are no outlets.

I’ve stated before that I write all these mini essays in between post, and somehow manage to discard all of them. My most recent one was about the two most influential figures in my life, my mother and Dr. Drew Pinsky. At the end of my 10pt, 2 page, no spacing rant I can to this one conclusion; I am really fucking weird.

I’ve got to admit to myself. I don’t know if anyone is as cool as Dr. Drew.

Ninjasonik & The Deathset @ The Bodega. July 5 2008

I feel the real need to become a hermit lately. With the exception of tomorrow (Wet hot American Summer @ McCarren) and my weekends, I don’t do much lately. I’m in a rut, and all I can do is think of a year from now.

Personal Event calendar for this week:

Tuesday the 8th:

-Father comes home, bobbie needs a place to crash

Wet Hot American Summer @ McCarren

I’ve got my floral lawn chair, my short shorts, my flannel, my tube socks, my sweatband, my drink and my two step. It’s on.

Friday the 11th:

I am really trying to mentally prepare myself for everything that might happen at this event.

Saturday the 12th:

I am not really committed to any of these events, but they are there for a reason… I guess:

Fuck Yeah Tour @ The highland ballroom

Sunday the 13th

The Breeders, Matt & Kim and The Whip @ McCarren Park Pool

(I am somewhat afraid to see what the photo pit is going to look like and need to rent some grade-A stuff)

Followed by:

but this time at Club exit.

Okay, my battery is going to die… Speaking of, I am now a redhead without the intension of being one… sorta annoyed. OH! I need your help! Every year I go through 2 major OCD fits in which I am compelled to give away most of what I own. Because I’ve been doing this for 3 years I don’t own much clothing, and the clothing I do own is second hand (and awesome) but extremely limited. My mother has made a bet with me that she’ll pay for some clothes if I buy more “girly” stuff (AKA no flannel). This issue is, I have studyed runway, have a secret love for fashion, and understand trends. However when it comes to myself, I don’t know where to start, I’d rather take the cash and but a camera (Speaking of, has any view the specs on the new Nikon d700, omg BEAST). Help! I’ve got the basic wardrobe down, I just need stuff like blouses and dress that don’t make me look like a grandma.

The ice cream truck is parked in from of me, I think its time to go sum this all up (in reference to last weekend):

Okay, I would have had this up the day after if it wasn’t such a hassle to pack up most of the stuff I know to go to the library instead of the normal convenience of staying in my bed!

Japanther & Ninjasonik for Rocks Off @ the Halfmoon Yacth. June 27 2008

My opinion of the show (just because someone ends up asking anyways) was that it was one of the best ones I have ever been too. If you haven’t noticed, the large chunk of recent shows as of the last lets say 4 months have been either Japanther or Ninjasonik.  It could be because I’ve meet such lovely people at their shows, the crowd is so unique with a particular energy, or because I have a good time. I don’t know why I keep on going back, it’s my little fix. What made this situation special was the fact that we were on a boat, and I’ve got to be honest, I kept on forgetting that. It was a personal hassle to get there. Myself and my merry crew of bandits (see that’s a pirating reference to Holly, Carly and Michele) decided to screw the LIRR and its increasing rates and just drive to Bushwick were we would meet up with kelsey, “chill” then head over. I saw this as a clear opportunity to get my beloved Tamron lens from Antwan who borrowed it, and for a few months we would miss each other to trade it back. So as I am getting it back, my crew of bandits leave me stranded in BK to go to the show in fear that it would leave them… awesome guys, real nice. Thus I get a flood of phone calls that almost send me into a panic attack, arrive in Manhattan shortly after, jump in a cab and get onto the boat… a good 30+ minutes before it actually leaves… yeah, I sorta wanted to hurt someone. I am pretty sure that seeing Michelle Pang was the thing that calmed me down because she just has that vibe about her. From there on it was good times and great foreshadowing for the rest of the summer. Things just might turn around.

Bullet points as to what is going on:

• Memo to friends and family, specifically family. Do NOT try and set me up on dates or situations in which I am forced to make a connection with the opposite sex. I HATE that stuff, it is the wrong type of awkward and if I wanted to be set up, I would ask. I know at times I can be supper charming, but in these situations I will end up making the other person think I have some sort of mental issue and avoid them at all cost. I lack a considerable amount of social graces, so lets just avoid all of that stuff ehh?
• I am pretty sure that by August of this summer I am officially kicked out of my house. This is a good thing, I swear to you.
• So because I am nerd I often find camera and its accessories as a type of “porn”:

Okay, I am done with that

If I can get at least 2 out of those 4 things by the end of July, I’ll be set for another 3 years (D50, you’ve been good but I need to retire you).

Flyer & Events?, Actually it comes down to the 4th and 5th of July until NEXT week.:

July 4th:

-Sonic Youth and the Feelies @ Battery Park, 3:30pm

July 5th:

(THE FOLLOWING EVENT IS THE ONLY THING THAT SORTA MATTERS ON THIS DATE, if you aren’t there, SHAME ON YOU!)

Okay, I am sorta done, however I have to throw this photo in:

I attempted to watch the BET awards last night. I’ve got to state something, growing up on long island and being sent to the school I did, I’ve always questioned the amount of “Black/ Dominican/ minority points” I have. Yeah, I think strange thoughts.

Here it goes:

⁃ woke up on my couch at 8:30 PM (bum status)
⁃ Started to watch at 8:34PM
⁃ Lil Kim… damn
⁃ Changed away from the station for the 1st time due to embarrassment
⁃ I forgot how irritating Cuba Gooding can be.
⁃ 8:43pm, Yami’s long lost brother, Ne-yo comes on the stage, lots of pre-recorded clapping… DANCE BREAKDOWN, is he looking at the crowd or at the camera? Where did these chicks come from, and why do they have torn up lab coats? Mimes, what is this?… OH WAIT, its the people from America’s best Dancing Crew… why do I know this?
⁃ I DISLIKE ASHANTI SO MUCH, i just get this urge to push her into a wall and then pretend it wasn’t me. Then if she was hurt, i would pretend that I would care, but on the inside I would have one of those evil laughs.
⁃ Best new artist- who won-the dream Who I thought should have won: I have no clue who these people are, but luckily not Soulja Boy, dude is like a bad rash.
⁃ Alicia Keys… You provoke nothing in me, but you are super pretty, if that makes up for the lack of emotion I am currently feeling… Wow, SWV, oh no she didn’t. Way to to put up the most unflattering of these women on the projector, wait, is she really bring out all the girl groups of the 90’s? En Vogue, what? TLC now… not gonna lie, I own “Crazy Sexy Cool” and “Fanmail”. They look really unhappy to be there.
⁃ best male hip hop artist: who won-Kanye West, who should of won- not even touching this one, Lil Wanye, get off the stage no one understands you.
⁃ T-Pain…Unicorns, top hats, mimes with dreads, censorship, white lions, stilt and fros. Censorship overload to the max, my eyes hurt. stick with a song for more than 60 seconds. Lip singing to the max, fire breathers, I CAN’T HANDLE THIS. WHERE ALL THESE PEOPLE COMING FROM? TOO MANY FLASHING LIGHTS. When is this over!? I’ve got another 2 hours, this is going to be painful.
⁃ SPOTS!
⁃ I hate the banner between presenters so much
⁃ Video of the Year: who won- UGK feat. Outcast, who should have won- not the winner, that song is really catchy but…
⁃ I change the station at 9:22PM, surprised it wasn’t earlier
⁃ changed the station at 9:29PM, not about the gospel
⁃ CHAIRMAN BREAK:

⁃ I am not even going to bother with best gospel artist, that stuff makes me nervous
⁃ Break, then commercial, then award. damn your predictability BET!
⁃ Chris Brown, you know your hair cannot handle rain… wait for it, dance sequence popping up. There is something about watching this guy simulate sex and knowing that his fan base is consisted of 15 year olds that is just wrong.
⁃ Best collaboration- who won- Kanye West feat T-pain- good life, who should of won- to be honest, they should of, but god, T-Pain is just sooo hard to look at
⁃ Was not even paying attention to that Al Green tribute, i think I lost some black points.
⁃ MAXWELL SINGING SIMPLY BEAUTIFUL IS ALMOST AS GOOD AS MIKE PATTON, not because they are on the same artistic wave length, just because i thought this dude was dead
⁃ Al Green would get this reaction from this crowd… and for the camera shots, how do people not get pissed when a camera is in their face….okay, this is too long.
⁃ changed the station at 10:19, 40 minutes to go!
⁃ if Lil Wayne wins viewers choice… wow, he did… people are MORONS
⁃ Riahanna, I feel like you change your hair every 3 days.
⁃ My attention for this is so small now, I just keep on thinking of the Boondocks whenever I see Debora Lee.
⁃ If anyone can save the world its Qunicy Jones… and I am not joking.
⁃ Nelly isn’t dead yet, is this night of the unliving stars? Still no shirt, eh? A song about Jordan’s… original… didn’t you do a song about Air force ones? Nelly, i am so disappointed… is that Ciara, if so, i heard absolutely nothing you just said. Fergie, so worn out with the random, and she isn’t wearing Jordan’s. I know why he doing it, FREE GEAR! it all makes sense!
⁃ BEEF BREAK:

⁃ If lil Wayne sells over a million copies in one week, doesn’t that mean something else. is Diddy promoting his own vodka?
⁃ Best female artist: who won- Alica Keys, who should have won- if you didn’t know by now, i sorta kinda love the cray cray that is mariah. Don’t hate on her
⁃ its 11:04 PM, WHY ISN’T IT OVER!
⁃ The end of the word “can’t”… WTF?
⁃ T-Pain, I am ashamed to have you as my ring tone now, i hate the fact that verizon won’t let me change you. “HUR” isn’t a word, that is the worse slang ever, HUR= GRRR. I can’t understand you! wait, i got the whole “VD like a menstrual bleed”, but you know what, THAT MAKES NO SENSE AND IT IS SLIGHTLY OFFENDING!
⁃ It’s over… I made it!

Yep, thats what I do with my spare time.

FLICKR

The word for the month of June is adequate.

I was sitting on my father’s porch this morning looking onto my block, and then it hit me like a ton of bricks, every bad social habit I have is due to him. There is nothing more depressing when you can see aspects (especially negative ones) of your parents inside yourself.

I’m falling off my game, I used to go to 2 to 4 shows every week, and now this month I’ve only gone to (I think) 2. So I am sending out emails for the standard press pass, and even if I don’t get it I’ll sneak my way there because I always manage to do that. But there is some good news, this weekend is going to be “beast” because of two events:

… I mean… come on, its on a yacht! There is no way I couldn’t go to this. I intend on crashing at people’s apartment’s all weekend (any takers for Saturday night) because the infamous McCarren Park Pool Parties start this weekend. I just love the summer for the fact that is always packed with events and a good 50% of them are for free, and I LOVE free stuff.

Tom’s Nightmare

Which at times can feel like this

But in the end, I have a good time regardless.

I made a mental note as to get out of this funked. If I wanted certain things to happen they would of. There is no reason to mourn over various things I never had.

The same deal as last time: http://www.sendspace.com/file/tjs28x

I’ve got to just get it out there, and this is just my opinion

GOOD magazine,

Meet The Candidates

America Love It Or Fix It 2008

The thing one thing about politics that gets to me is the bias tendencies of the media. In fact, it drives me crazy and its nearly impossible for me to not get upset by major network news and even harder for me not to become livid with internet media sources. When it comes to elections this year I know who I am voting for, not because he is the savior of this nation but because he is the lesser of two evils (In my opinion). Lately all both candidates have been portrayed as though they are gods that in one term are going to fix our HORRIBLE economy, promote democracy in this vast globe, repair foreign relations, and battle all evil do-ers. That, or that they are horrible liars that are going to burn in hell with the terrorist and Hitler. Fuck the news, do your research, everyone is not what they seem, and then take steps to progress and don’t get pissed when it doesn’t happen the next day, or even in the next 4 years.

RIP George Carlin

I just dropped off the film from this weekend, and I wish I had the motivation to make a promise that I would make an entry for the photos today, but I can’t promise anything. Sorry I haven’t been updating as much as I would love to, but I now take back that statement about not being able to access my site from home… its horrible, the amount of change I’ve have to put into the meters of my local library could possibly be more then I have ever put in my life… all that change floating in the meter abis.

a list to some friends, some acquaintances, and some people I really miss:

o I’ve got this strange semblance of thoughts that have been clamoring my head for the last two months or so. In all honestly, I haven’t been myself in a while, and to be even more exact, I feel like I lost myself in that one week in May. I wish I could straight out say what has caused me to change, the crack that finally caused the damn to break, but it would involve me to betray someone’s trust and I’ve never done anything to that degree of scummy. I’ve got to say that moving home hasn’t helped me at all, other than seeing certain friends a on more constant bases.
o Dear Emma from the popular Canadian television show degrassi,
I despise your character more than anything more on television. I consider myself lucky that you are fictional and I am SO happy I haven’t met anyone that exhibits your character traits.
o My weekends have become this blur of great because I love the people I spend my time with but it short lived. I find myself “living for the weekends”.
o Download the new Girl Talk Album, The Animals, just because it’s good.
o I hate Toby too, most useless character EVER
o Its hit me that I have not purchased any apparel since January, and that was at a thrift shop (RIP JOESSIE!)
o Being unemployed sucks so much, SOMEONE PLEASE HIRE ME!
o I have no idea why I dyed my hair and late night television is losing its “awesomeness”.
o I miss way too many people. Plus I’ve turned into the worse type of person! I sit and look for cosmic signs as to why I should do things that I A) Want to do but worry about what other people are going to do/ say and B) wonder if it will work out as I planned in my head instead of accepting that in my years of existence, nothing has ever really gone the way I have planned.

Whatever, summer is still young, this weekend is going to be epic, I guess I could post a flyer/show/ dance party update within the next few days… aka tomorrow. expect photos on the flickr tonight.

1) To wrap it up:

PLEASE INDULGE MY INNER DEBATE NERD AND WATCH THIS MOVIE:

Resolved Movie

2) Shut up Soulja boy and Ice T, but Ice T, you win by default in my book because I LOVE SVU.

3) The best Advice ever.

4) New Tunes replace the “xx” with a “tt”, its an secret who the artist are until you put it in your itunes. DO IT.

hxxp://www.sendspace.com/file/by2c05
hxxp://www.sendspace.com/file/rih10j

I’ve been slowly trying to “pimp out” this page, but I am pretty sure I don’t have any more quarters to put in the meter. Until then:

Its my secret theory that this song advocates the usage of GHB.

Yeah, being unemployed allows you to have a lot of random thoughts.

I am sorry, I felt really out of it this week and decided to completely revamp this site. The blog is the most complicated thing (in terms of HTML) on my site, therefore it took the longest.

I had plenty of little mini entries saved, but none of them really seems that accurate due to random mood swings and whatnot. Oh well. This weekend was… memorable.

I have no clue how I am going to get all my old entries and links back. If you want me to link you site, comment here, just in case I forget it.

This guy is my summer version of Dax Flame (he hasn’t been updating as often)